We had pre-dental cleaning workups done on the puppies last night.
A couple of days ago I found a mass on HarleyQuinn’s hip and since we were there asked them to check it out too. They ended up doing a needle aspiration (?) and they’ll call with the results in a couple of day. Needless to say I’m worried. She’s my baby. I got her four years ago a week after I had major surgery and she would sleep on my chest, which would keep me sitting down and not getting up and doing too much during my recovery. We bonded a lot and to this day when I sit in a chair to read, she wants to sit on me.
Then it was Jasper Prissy Pant’s turn. They found a heart murmur. They took him off to a ‘sound proof’ room and listened again and pulled another doctor in to listen. Yep, it’s really there. Since they need to anesthetize him for his cleaning they want to do further tests to see why he has a murmur before putting him under. We were sent home to think about all the reasons it could be there, how it can be looked at, and were told they would call us with some estimates today of each procedure. M has a heart murmur and if it weren’t for the fact that he’s been an althete all his life it could be serious. He is sympathizing with Jasper. I don’t think he’s as worried as I am because of his own issue and I’m an expert at worrying. I know he wasn’t saying it to be mean but when we got home he was talking to the dogs and told them they were pulling money out of our ‘house downpayment fund’ and that we were going to end up living in a trailer. It was very upsetting to me and I ended up not eating supper and going to bed early.
A couple of years ago he made a comment about having to give up his racing wheels because of some procedure one of the puppies (Harley or Bandit) might need. It was hurtful then too.
I’m trying to decide how to deal with the hurt on top of the worry. I know I need to talk to him about it but it’s hard for me to talk about my feelings with him (even after all these years).
Update at 10:00 a.m. The vet just called HarleyQuinn has a bladder infection. I feel like such a bad mom because he thinks she’s had it for awhile and I haven’t noticed anything different about her behavior 🙁